sometimes it’s hard

to be a thousand miles away from the one you love

and to have to be around people who are happy

because you know you’re happy, you know that you’re happier than everyone around you combined

but it kills you to know that you cant touch, see, kiss, talk to, listen to

sometimes it makes me want to curl up and cry, because it’s just too hard to handle

tonight is one of those nights

i want her

i want here here, with me

safe where i can see her and protect her and know that she’s safe

because it kills me to think that she’s cold and alone

and out of my reach

sometimes it’s just really hard

i feel like fucking shit

i’m so upset.

i’m not mad, i’m not sad, i’m just frustrated. i can’t handle this.

if i try and be funny, people are offended. if i don’t talk, people are offended. if i give my opinions, people are offended. 

i just don’t know how to handle overly sensitive people. i can’t. i just. i feel like shit because 90% of the time i offend them i don’t know what i did wrong, and auset is telling me i’m not doing anything wrong, and i jsut want to apologize to them so that we can move on but idk wht to apologize for, because i don’t feel like  idid anything wrONG

i can’t stop crying because i feel so bad but there’s nothing i can do and i feel liek shit beacuse i can’t draw and i don’t like the same things and i can’t relate to anything they say but i still want to be there to be polite and nice but i can’t because no amtter how hard  i try everyone ust gets offended and then i get emo and i get sd’flkas’df;lasfdk;sdalfad;’lfk

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